I try with all my might to not worry about tomorrow...or the next day or the next week, month, year!!! You probably get the picture. I am a worrier! I am a Fluffy Worrier! No denying that and I am in awe of people that are not worriers. I don't know too many...but I have known a few and they seem to be a peaceful sort!!
Anyway...I do find it difficult to not worry about tomorrow. Just in general. As I take this weight loss Journey, I find that there are lots of things I could worry about! HOWEVER, something quite interesting is happening. I am aware..ever so slightly aware...that I am not worrying as much! I do not mean a drastic change. I have not lost 35lbs and become this peaceful, laid back type..no, unfortunately that is not the case. However, I am aware of little nuances of change. Little moments that I am suddenly aware that my worry button seems to be in the off position.
Take Mondays for example...I used to about this time every Sunday, get into some serious dread about the beginning of a new work week. I think largely because I typically felt physically exhausted and mentally drained from the previous work week and in my experience, the weekend did not provide much of a respite from that exhaustion. I was physically ill...in pain and overwhelmed at the thought of "starting all over again" each Monday.
Being a person who struggles with chronic pain, migraines, etc...it sometimes takes every ounce of physical and mental strength I have to do what I need to do on a daily basis. Quite frankly, we are talking about survival...just doing enough to get by!
BUT...I am beginning to feel a shift. I am enjoying my weekends again. I am finding myself less worried about the beginning of a new week and more energized about the next step in this process of change. Again, it feels like baby steps..but it is real. A real change away from something that has been part of my life for years. Another gift!! Another small victory!
I can guess (obviously) that because I am losing weight, have regained some of my ability to be physically active and am finding a bit of relief from my Migraines, that the stress of starting the work week is beginning to diminish. I am grateful.
I still have a long way to go and just like the rest of this Journey, I will have to continue to do all within my power to take the next right step, have faith, believe in hope and trust that God has a plan for me.
Today I am grateful that another small "piece" of change for the better has entered my consciousness...:)
I would like to think of this as the beginning of my transition from a Fluffy Worrier to a Healthy Warrior!
I think I have posted this quote here before...but I love it so much that you may see many times over before this Journey is complete.
Well worrying must run in the family. Lori has thanked me for passing that "worry thing" down to her. Ronnie on the other hand is one of those that "claims" he does not worry. I wish I didn't have the worries all the time. I have been working at it. You always have our back. You are doing so good. I haven't seen you in a bit. I can see the weight loss in some of the pictures I have seen. Your doing good. We luv ya & suppot you 100%. Barb
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