Wednesday, November 26, 2014

The Road to Nashville-A Thanksgiving Journey

So...I will try to make this brief (fat chance) After a few semi-unexpected delays...Mom and I struck out yesterday for a road trip to Nashville to spend Thanksgiving with my Aunt and Uncle. We did not LEAVE Houston until 9:30 PM...but made the 5 hour 1st leg drive to Texarkana.  Got to sleep at 3:00 AM or so and back up and at 'em by 8:30 AM! Today, we drove another 9 hours and finally arrived safe and sound here in Music City!

I love road trips...so the drive was fun for me...I love traveling during the holidays...seeing families travel to go see other family and friends...always makes feel all warm and fuzzy! 

As I was driving,  I just really felt so incredibly grateful for all the parts of my life...my family, friends, the amazing love and support I receive...daily.  Even grateful for the challenges, for those challenges make it possible for me to fully experience the Joy of this Journey.

Lately, I have been slumping...wearing my best Negative Nelly face and thinking that I am falling behind and failing. But funny enough, just the act of admitting that here, proves that I am still in the game...still swinging for fences and still "willing" to BE willing! 

Not perfect...but persistent! 

As I drove today...I was reminded that each minute of each day has value...even the most mundane, the most challenging, the most difficult...they ALL  add up to create an experience.  For me, it becomes about how I choose to view those moments,  how I choose to use that time that determines how MUCH value each moment has in my life.

So as Mom and I traveled on the Road to Nashville,  I made a point to document some of these little moments...highlight even those seemingly insignificant little bits that when gathered together create a wonderful experience.  An experience for which to be eternally grateful and forever Thankful.

Here are a few pics of our Journey...some funny, special, silly, even seemingly mundane moments on the #RoadtoNashville

Happy Thanksgiving my dears! 

Sunday, November 23, 2014

I am Weak but He is Strong

I am fighting a bit of a losing battle these last few days...
Derailed a bit by the injury...trying to survive this season of eating in midst of off the charts levels of stress in my work life...and the motivation to fight all the daily temptations is no where to be found!

Not feeling it these days...but not liking not feeling it, either.

Definitely still struggling.  Hoping that telling the truth makes the pressure of this slump less oppressive and makes room for better energy. 

Just need to keep praying...keep believing and needed this reminder below.

I am weak but He is strong!

Wednesday, November 19, 2014

"De-Feeted" But Not Defeated!

Yes....THIS happened!! After 2 yrs and 2 months my body has waged a significant protest!

I am bummed...but, not defeated...more like temporarily "de-feeted"...right foot out of commission... lost to a stress fracture for the next 3 to 5 weeks!

Get to wear this Herman Munster styled footwear as a perk!

Doc says that I can still work upper body though...thinks I will be able to train for MS 150....just not as soon as I had hoped!
Still Forging On...Thanks for your prayers!

Tuesday, November 18, 2014

Practicing My Victory Dance-Mid Battle

Often...too often...I, when thrust into the middle of a stressful time,  turn to food as a comfort.
Even still.
Or at the very minimum, I want to turn to food as a means of hiding from those times that feel too big for me to handle.
Not easy words to write...harder still, to live with!

But...that is my battle to win...not to lose! 

I am struggling...

One thing I know about this Journey is that there will be battles...

One thing I have learned during this Journey....those battles can be won.

My goal...to keep the battles in perspective...to prayerfully move forward...asking all the way that I have the ability to discern the mountains from the molehills. Trusting my experience, my strength and my hope...having an unshakable faith...believing that with every battle comes a victory....and subsequently, a Victory Dance!

If you have a spare prayer...I could use an extra. It it appears that I have my first (more than bothersome) injury to contend with on this Journey and will be visiting a sports medicine orthapedist in the A.M.

Bummed yet determined that this will not deter my slow train to the MS 150 (or 180 if the truth be told).

In the meantime...I will continue to fight the fluff...wage war against old habits, work to strengthen my whole body...mind and spirit included AND continue to practice my Victory Dance...its gonna be kick ass...just wait and see!

Posted the below on Instagram/FB earlier...words to live by! Seeking God Daily! 

Lastly,  I have several people in my life who are experiencing great loss, health challenges and much greater obstacles than I...my heart and my prayers are with them while they bravely fight their own big battles.

God Bless!

Thursday, November 13, 2014

Not Fair

When my niece Emily was much younger she went through a phase of saying..."That's Not Fair"...in context to almost ANY situation....It kinda drove me crazy and at times...she wasn't exactly wrong...

Though I did tire very quickly of that "phase"...there were moments when it made perfect sense that she felt that way!

Today felt like a "That's not Fair" day...My professional life is a hot mess...I have seen friends lose their jobs as of late...seen a company that I have worked for close to 5 years slowly dissolve and I feel tremendous pressure to prepare for what feels like the inevitable...a job change/loss.
It doesn't feel fair and it certainly feels poorly timed.

However...in the middle of my mess...in the middle of my "that's not fair" day...this Journey continues.

It occurred to me tonight...after enduring this whole Not Fair day...that this Journey has been and continues to be about radical change...miraculous, uncomfortable, challenging, painful, glorious  change that has lead me down a path I could have never imagined possible. 

It occurred to me that as frightening as this change may feel right now...God still is driving the bus and I still have places to go...people to see and things to do.

I can't lose sight...and definitely can't lose Faith! I can't give up on the dreams I have or the plan God has made! 

It Would Not Be Fair!

Wednesday, November 12, 2014

Any Day On This Journey is Good

Despite a recent bout with middle agedness...I continue to think that I must forge on...fight for the next step and breathe in the belief that I am capable...of anything and everything.

Some days are better than others...

In my battle with fatigue, creaking bones, aching muscles and stubborn fluff...I find that I have to rely on pure unadulterated will...and the faith that supports that stubborn will.

Some days are better than others.

Last night during my boot camp time...I struggled mightily!  In my opinion,  ridiculously so...stopping mid set...light headed from my efforts...feeling SO discouraged...feeling every minute of my 47 years on this planet.

But...I managed to finish...albeit with more of a limp than a glide...but I got through...managed to move this body in a forward direction...managed to trust this process and am truly,  genuinely working on remembering that though some days are, in fact, better than others...Any day on this Journey is good!

Monday, November 10, 2014

The Fat Season Blues

I have recently heard this time of year described as "Fat Season".  The 1st time I saw it...I truly l laughed out loud....an honest to goodness LOL!

That laugh was closely followed by this thought...Hell...I LIVE in Fat Season...Every Day!!! Is there a Thin Season? Or even a Well-Proportioned Season??

As I enter this time of year...I struggle like many...with all of the temptation this season brings and if I am not careful, I enter Fatter Season crooning the Fat Season Blues! 

This Journey is a little tougher right now than preferred...I "feel" like I am working my ass off...without results!

I have hit the weight loss wall hard...and genuinely don't seem to know how to get around it...through it or over it!

However,  despite feeling some embarrassment at this fact...I STILL believe that this is God's plan for me...just not seeing that plan too clearly today!

Just one of those roadblocks that feels bigger than it is...too big to maneuver gracefully, today!

So...I tell the truth here in hopes that by doing so, I can keep my focus, acknowledge the uncomfortable parts of this Journey, trust blindly in God's plan, count my blessings and just keep going!

My friend Brigette sent me this today...Perfectly timed! So very true in So many ways!