No post tonight. I hope all of u had a safe and Happy Halloween!
So...It is Monday...and of course...I have to work to not make one of my standard Monday wisecracks!
Instead ..I am embracing this day as yet one More Opportunity to see a blessing...be a blessing...and break a sweat!
At the end of my work day...I REALLY wanted to go home...eat and get in some quality couch time....AND then...I thought about how great it is going to feel to finally beat the Fluff...to conquer...overcome and defeat my flabby opponent!
So...I decided I must go to the gym so that I could kick my own ass! BATTLE!
So I did my Concept II Rower workout...3 sets...300 meters...1.50 minutes. So I did my first set in...300 meters in 1:50 min.
Then my 2nd set after a 3 minute rest. 300 meters in 1:25 min.
Then my 3rd set....300 meters. ..1:15 min. YEA BABY! !
Now please here me say...I thought my chest was going to explode...but I did it...I kicked my own ass in record time!
After that...I did 25 minutes on the bike. But while I was sitting on the bike...I became aware of this button that I always have to push before I begin....It says:
I always chuckle when I push it....it could not be farther from the truth for me! I am not the master of the quick start...but I secretly wish there was a button that magically gave me quick start ability....you know...like a sprinter...fast off the blocks...quick out of the gate!
Also written on that button is the word "Resistance"...with a picture of an "UP" arrow and a "DOWN" arrow. Now these are words I can relate to...Lol!
That is one of the my biggest daily challenges....managing my Resistance! The "Ups" and "Downs".
If you could hear the dialogue...the arguments that go on in my head during the beginning of my workouts...you would either scream with frustration...OR roar with laughter! It is Cray Cray!
But I truly have to push through the resistance...the physical AND the mental! I have to have these conversations with myself daily!
But...I am finding that the key to my resistance is in fact, my persistence...I have to go through the Ups and Downs and the round and rounds...I have to overcome the effects of the slow start and be willing to battle the sluggishness and TRUST that the middle and end are worth the fight!
I have to be willing to battle the defeated me that thinks that the slow start is a good reason to stop! Push...Fight...Battle...against all of my conditioned responses to pain and fatigue!
I know I can beat the Resistance...it is just going to take Persistence!
Here is a little photo collage of my battle tonight!
Hello...and a Happy Sunday to you! I actually slept in today....after a busy Saturday...a big ole allergy attack AND staying up really late to see if Kerri and April won in China....I was a little hosed today!
So...Kerri and April DID WIN!! This makes Kerri the winningest Women's Beach Volleyball player EVER! How cool is that!! She now has 113 career wins surpassing Misty May Treanor with 112.
She inspires again...after watching her struggle last weekend...still give 150% of her heart...leave her family...fly half way around the world and beat the #1 ranked team in the world to win more tournaments than any woman before her.....I figure I can push through a little fatigue...get in my car...drive 2.5 minutes to the gym...and lift a few weights...
Maybe...just maybe...I will become the World's Losingiest Fluffy Girl! Ok...so maybe not a REAL title...but still...something to fight for!
Truth...today was one of those days I woke up feeling like I was already losing...and not in a good way. I just have these days...days where stress and fatigue or worry seem to get a jump on me...and I get caught up in the chaos.
I lose sight of what I could see yesterday. Lose sight of the peace that comes with the knowledge that everything is always alright...again....maybe not like I planned, but Always as God Planned.
In the midst of my short term memory loss...I find myself in some kind of angst...knots in stomach...overwhelmed mind...fidgeting and fretting...So tonight I REALLY needed my decompression time...time to pray.. write...think...think less...and then just focus on All the Good...all the blessings.
Letting go of the regrets...the shoulds...coulds and woulds...
I am a work in progress...an imperfect person working on being comfortable with that fact...the imperfections...working on losing the things that weigh me down...both literally and figuratively...working on stretching my physical, emotional and spiritual muscles eveyday. Working on gaining perspective...gaining confidence....gaining experience. ..growing my faith and opening my heart to all the possibilities...opening my life to the God Direction...
My friend Brigette sent me this today...
"Life is either a daring adventure, or nothing." ~Helen Keller
Living Life to the Fullest...experiencing every moment...learning...laughing...loving...overcoming...ALL of these are key to my Journey...I will not let fear hold me back. I AM living for the Adventure...Not For Nothing!
FORGE ON! MAWA!!
J.P. Fluff N Stuff...That was the very First Thing that popped into my head as I begin this post tonight!!
That is the kind of brain I have. ..right there! So...Ms Fluff n Stuff...completed her very 1st trampoline aerobics class today! "AIR"obics!
Let me just say....DAMN!!! So far...the only thing harder was the Dune! This class was a beast...BUT...I started it...finished it...and did NOT need medical attention! Winna Winna Chicken Dinna!
According to Emily...she said I got 6 stars out of a possible 10. She is tougher than a Russian judge during the Olympics!
But...I had fun...I did one more thing that I couldn't do before I started this Journey...My friend Lindsey was right there with me...along with her Mom...Aunt and Mom' sister-in-law...These ladies kicked butt!!
I had another opportunity to prove to myself that I CAN...CAN try new things...CAN push beyond my comfort zone. ..I CAN be imperfect....CAN work hard...CAN be better! And today I learned...I CAN jump...just not very high!
LIFE TODAY WAS A CAN-CAN!!! And therefore a WIN-WIN!!
After our class I took Emily to lunch...came home...Took a nap...THEN...did a 5 mile bike ride...burned 365 more calories and am whooped!!!
I feel good about today...This Journey is progressing....I am still moving FORWARD. ..ONWARD!!!
I am still surrounded by amazing examples of God's Love and Grace!! My friends...family....and even some fit...high bouncing...young..."air"obics instructor who tried to kill me!
Here is the GROUP!
Tomorrow is the big day! Leaving bright and early...back to Cali...back for a booster shot of inspiration!
My post tonight was going to be about how excited I am...my anticipation! The next amazing step on this Journey...however things changed.
As I was driving home from the gym, I called Donna to say Adios and check in with her...typically a daily thing. She shares with that she is on her way to the hospital to be with her family...You see...Donna's 30 year old niece has been bravely battling Cancer...and quite frankly. ..kicking Cancer's ass! Tonight cancer is pushing back...and the fight is back on.
I stopped by the house to check in with Emily...give her a few kisses and see how she was dealing with the news. Ironically, tomorrow is "Pink It Out" day at school...an outward day of support for those fighting and surviving cancer. My girl had created a t-shirt that in bold letters asked for prayers for her cousin.
Life is precious! Every single moment! The painful moments. ..the joyful moments. All are invaluable!
So tonight's post is a request for an uprising of prayers...A wave of the Peace and Healing and for my friend, her family, her niece and great nephew...God's comforting Love.
Goodnight my friends...you are all in my heart!
Happy Rainy Sunday...at least that is the case here in Houston!
Nice day to sleep in...But...I did not! Started the day with church...followed by a quick lunch...a little light housework and then off to the Y-M-C-A!
Got in another pretty good workout...trying to do more weight lifting work...followed by some cardio. I have been working out in what I call the "big boy gym"...you know...the place where the muscles have muscles! A typically "flab free zone"...until now! MOVE OVER BOYS...Make room for FLUFFY!
It is a little awkward for me...but what the heck...you only live once! I am just trying to work with and work OFF what I got!
Now...I am having my "reflection" time...Time to prepare my heart, mind and body for the week ahead!
Big week ahead...I leave for Cali early Friday morning....Excited mostly...nervous a little! Am sure it will be another amazing experience!
My focus this week is working on me from the inside out...believing in my own heart. Knowing that I while I may be imperfect...I am a loved child of God. I will focus on reaching beyond the critical voice in my head to hear the Voice Of Truth...God's truth.
Literally as I sit here writing this...I received the following from Kerri:
"You really have to love yourself to get anything done in this world" ~Lucille Ball
As I received it...I thought about how much I love God's timing...about how blessed I am to be growing a friendship with someone like Kerri Lee Walsh Jennings and about how much I Love Lucy...always have! Perfectly Divine in an imperfect world!
I feel good about this week! I hope your week is Perfectly Divine as well!
By the way...The Jennings family represented the U.S.A. in glorious fashion...Casey and Phil won the Silver in Brazil. ..while Kerri and April brought home the Gold...AWESOMENESS!
Happy late Saturday. EARLY Sunday!
It has been an action packed day filled with lots of fluff busting and butt kickin'.
First, I completed a tough workout...a real doozie.. kettle bell squats...lunges...shoulders...deadlifts...chest press and Lat pulls! THEN...some light cardio! I WAS A FLUFF BUSTIN BEAST!
Secondly, it was a banner sports day! My Texas Longhorns whooped up some Sooners AND...tomorrow. ..Kerri and her husband Casey will BOTH be going for Gold tomorrow in Sao Paulo! Go U.S.A.!!!
Lastly...I spent the rest of the day getting ready for and fully partcipating in Emily's 13th Birthday Party! She and I shopped for the perfect balloons...picked up pizza and even squeezed in a Starbucks trip!
Party was great....I spent the rest of the night "runnin" with a pack of teens/pre-teens...games...presents...sugar induced chaos...FUN!
However. ...I am now suffering from a bad case of Gluteous Drageous! In other words....My Ass is Draggin'
Great Day...Another day of great blessings...lots of love and fluff busting!
This Fluffy Girl is done for tonight.
Hi There....A Big...Busy Day in my little corner of the world!
Today...13 years ago...a sweet, little baby girl was born to my best friend and her husband and I had the honor of being there and holding that baby girl moments after she was born...It was love at 1st sight!
Since that moment...I have been Aunt Jaime...proudly! An amazing blessing....a funny, lovable, precious little human! The Divine Ms Em continues to bless my life daily! 13 Lucky years of blessings!
So Mom and I were up early to take Emily a birthday cupcake and flowers to start her day...before school! The celebration continued tonight and we will crank up the party again tomorrow!! That is how we ROLL!
In between all of that, I worked, coached volleyball, shopped, and spent 2.5 hours in H-town traffic! But you know what...It was a good day!
Another day filled with opportunities to truly see all of God's blessings both large and small!
I am truly blessed!
Congratulations to both Kerri and Casey as they and their teammates....kicked some serious volleyball butt today. They deserve every victory...every successful moment....They are Living the Love! Champions!
I will continue on this path tomorrow...Living in the Light!
Hello there....he we are again...Joining together in this place...this place where I document my day to day battle of the bulge. ..my daily little victories...my setbacks and my steps up...the at times, hormone induced musings of a middle-aged woman.
Our meetings here allow me to share the the ups and downs, the funny moments. ..the scary challenges...the perfect blessings wrapped up in the imperfect me!
Today was another step in this Journey. Not a particularly remarkable day...but another opportunity to conquer the fluff...another opportunity to live in the Light and fight the flab!
Here is the thing....today was not perfect but it was perfectly fine.
I am not doing this whole thing perfectly...not even close. The piece that I am working on right now is the balance between good, healthy accountability and my tendency to feel like I am coming up short...or just not doing enough and confessing my shortcomings here. I want this place to be the ONE place I can tell the truth and hope for the best...be accountable...be vulnerable without feeling like I am writing "Confessions of a Fat Girl".
So I am not feeling perfect today. ..have had a few food struggles and am physically whipped...No...I am definitely not perfect. ..But, I am PERFECTLY FINE!
I am still in this battle...still willing to be willing...still craving good health and still working on shedding my "fig leaves", embracing my imperfections and learning to lighten up! Literally and Figuratively!
After last night's post about being a Champion of Love...Kerri reminded me how important it is to love ME! She said it..."makes all the rest possible"
You gotta love her! She is seriously wise and smart as a whip!
Goodnight and here is to another perfectly fine day!
THIRD night in a row...The Fluffy girl is back to defluffing...pushing through the sluggish and pounding it out! Ok..."pounding" may be a slight exaggeration! But I am pushing...working...sweating...YOU KNOW!
My body is resisting...but the fact that in less than two weeks I will be in California meeting someone who trains people with zero percent body fat...is motivation enough to keep moving...I will be rolling up in there with my double digit body fat...and I DO mean rollin'!
Lord save us Ms Davis...I am excited, nervous, thrilled and intimidated! But it is ON...I AM going...no turning back!!
I know that will be a great deal to learn from the experience! Another Amazing Blessing!
So I am working on packing less fluff for my trip and traveling with more confidence!
I was at the gym tonight and the below picture hangs in the women's locker room. I needed to be reminded...I can forget Gratitude at times...Not sure how. ..but it happens!
Gratitude builds my faith...strengthens my heart and bolsters my resolve...When I forget Gratitude....I lose momentum!
So my slogan for today...Go For The Gratitude!
Today has been a nice day....Mom felt pretty dang good...Good enough to go to our favorite Fall festival and play BINGO!
We play Bingo once a year at the St. Ignatius Loyola Catholic Fall Festival...Always kicks off my favorite time of the year...Happy Fall Ya'll!!!
So...I did my first full workout today...the 1st full workout in a couple of weeks...I did a 7 mile bike ride, did a kettlebell workout, lunges, dead lifts, and a few other things...It was challenging but I completed the workout! A small back in the saddle hurdle cleared.
Most of you know that I have a chronic immune disease that has been remarkably manageable over the past year. Really a miracle that I have been in a kind of remission for a while. Unfortunately, it appears that my "remission" has sort of ended...I have been experiencing some symptoms of late that are typical of the illness!
But...here is what is great...I completed a full workout today! Though I am not feeling my best...I DID it...I overcame a roadblock! That makes for a good day!
So...I will be praying daily for the strength to be a daily overcomer...to smartly manage my energy and stay on this trajectory to better health.
Actually. I think this disease can be part of my past and NOT in my future. I will have to push through...walk over...knock down and overcome any obstacles I may face!
Today was a step in the right direction!
Prayers please! I will need them!
Sweet dreams! JLP
Happy Friday...Busy day...work...then Volleyball game tonight!
My Spiker girls lost but played MUCH better! We will get em next time!
Mom is home. ..resting and feeling better today.. still a little tired.
So...as you all know. My motivation has been underwhelming as of late! I have a 5K coming up in November as a mini goal! But as of today...I booked a trip to Huntington Beach, CA to see the AVP Beach VB Championships and to see Kerri play! AND on Monday, October 21st...I will be meeting Kerri's trainer. I am hoping that I will have the opportunity to learn some new ways to navigate this Journey and I am hoping that the experience will provide a much-needed motivational boost!
Honestly. Once I made the appt...my adrenaline shot through the roof! I thought OMG, IN LESS THAN 3 WEEKS...I will be meeting with a man who trains world class athletes...Wait til he gets a load of me!! Do you think it is possible to lose 60lbs in 2.5 weeks? Hell to the no!
So...I am excited AND a little intimidated! but I will say this...this entire Journey has been about stepping outside of my comfort zone! It has been about being willing to be willing!
I can tell you this...I don't like how I feel right now...my old comfort zone is not so comfortable anymore!
I am willing to step back into this Journey....even the discomfort of new experiences. ..of rolling my fluffy self to Cali...flying solo and sharing this Journey with another new group of people!
There were quite a few good reasons NOT to take this trip...but my gut (no pun intended) said GO!...plus my Mom and several friends encouraged me to take this trip! My sweet friend Camille said this to me:
"YOU HAVE TO MAKE IT WORK….this is this juice – the injection – the shot in the arm you need right now. Imagine how much that will inspire you!"
I need a shot in the arm!
So I am leading with my gut...Going for the gusto...and am trusting this trip is just one more amazing God gift!
I continue to have amazing support from an amazing group of people that God has quite strategically placed in my life.
AGAIN...I am Blessed!
TONE TONE IS HOME! Home Sweet Home!
She is quite tired but quite happy to be unhooked, unplugged, unencumbered by any medical machinery!
Got her home this evening and got her settled then I headed out for a bike ride...I have not worked out in 2+ weeks...and boy could I tell...
I thought my heart was going to pound out of my chest! Seriously. ..I thought Holy Toledo...I am going to drop dead!
But...I survived. WHY is it that it takes so long to get in shape....but so little time to get "out of shape"?...Why is that?
Anyway. ..the good news. ..I worked out and Lived to tell about it!
Now....I am ready to turn off my brain. ..and get some rest...
Goodnight and thank you all for your continued prayers!
Hello...I am sitting in the hospital with my Mom...not an unfamiliar place for her...for either one of us.
I have a love/hate relationship with hospitals! They have saved my Mom's life...and mine...and they bring up a whole world of not so great memories.
I am grateful to be here today. ..knowing that my Mom needs a high level of care and is getting that care in this hospital. I just could do without the antiseptic odor that permeates my senses and triggers lots of unpleasant memories.
I am a bit of a wingnut...I can barely walk into a hospital without getting completely nauseated...at least for a moment...I recover...but hate it!
Moments like this remind me why I am willing to take this road...this Journey. ..even when it is hard...I want to live healthy...I want any memories of being hospitalzed to be nothing more than a vague, foggy haze.
I want to be strong, courageous and fortified in good health so that I can be a strong, kick ass caretaker for my Mom!
This Journey has always been about being a better human being...being someone who's faith is stronger than any unhealthy vice...
You know...I am struggling. I feel comfortable saying that this is the most I have struggled from the very beginning. But...I am clear that the alternative...the old path...is a path to nowhere.
So again...I trust that this day has served a purpose. ..even amid the struggles.
For my Mom...I am praying for her comfort and healing! Her faith is like steel! Her Kidneys...well...they need some help!!
Thank you to my friends and family for your support! Thanks to all of you who have answered my request for prayers. I believe prayer is most powerful. ..therefore, I ask for your continued prayers!
Thanks to Aunt Charlotte, Brig, Donna, Aunt Lois, Nettie for checking in with us...and thanks to Kerri for sharing your precious Scout...who got the biggest smile of the day!
A special thanks to all of you...my Facebook pals for all of the prayers and comments. ..I have read each one to Mom! Love!
Here is my sweet Mama...finally resting!
She will probably kill me for taking a pic of her while in the hospital!!!
Love and hugs to u all!