On days like today...It feels like the only thing I really have any control over is my attitude. I have to choose to approach days like these firmly rooted in the idea that this is just one day. That tomorrow will be different and that I have the drive, faith and fortitude to move through it. I guess if I think about it...I need this everyday. Drive, Faith and Fortitude. This may sound strange...but on days like today..when pain is the overriding factor...I am more likely to truly be in that "One Day at a Time" mindset. Pain strips away the "control" part of my personality. The truth is for me...God is always in control...however, my actions do not always follow suit. Now...I am not saying that the pain is good...no, no, no....pain is no bueno! However, it does force my hand...it forces me to stop and forces me to Let Go and Let God!!! It truly forces me to hand over the control and to Trust and to have Faith.
I once had someone ask me "how does the pain serve you"...I actually thought that was a completely bizarre question...but over the years I have thought about it and the above is what I have arrived at...I am choosing to learn something from this pain...not let just beat me down. I do not want to misrepresent. There are days and have been days in the past several months that I am completely paralyzed by the pain and not in that ODAT mindset. But I truly am making an attempt to just listen to my body, change the way I live, change what I put in to my body and have Faith that I am on the path God has chosen for me...The pain has something to teach me...not my favorite teacher...but a teacher nonetheless!
OK....Headed into Wednesday... a NEW DAY! One day closer to my goal...One day further along in this Journey 120-"MAWA" Inspired!
"But pain insists upon being attended to. God whispers to us in our pleasures, speaks in our conscience, but shouts in our pains: it is His megaphone to rouse a deaf world." --C.S. Lewis